A mood. (Desperate)

2025-10-19

Солярис - Дядя Женя

Net of Gleams Tangle - Scythe of Luna

Graduation, full album - Kanye West

Эдуард Хиль "Сережка ольховая"

Ace Combat 4 Ost - Megalith Agnus Dei

Земляне - Трава у Дома

A Better Tomorrow 英雄本色 OST (especially e.g. 09 Mark's Theme)

Nothing Is Safe - clipping.

Башня из слоновой кости - oxxxymiron

Pruit Igoe - Philip Glass

Three Note Oddity - The Conet Project

The Girl That Love Made Blind - The Brain Surgeons

Underground (Cave Canem Demo) - Aurelio Voltaire

The Siege and Investiture of Baron von Frankenstein's Castle at Weisseria - Blue Oyster Cult

Astronomy - Blue Oyster Cult

A Future - Ada Rook

One Man Can Change the World - Big Sean, Kanye West, John Legend

Sprawl II (Mountains Beyond Mountains) - Arcade Fire

The Ballad of Smallpox Gone - Leslie Fish

The Court of the Crimson King - King Crimson

Credens justitiam - Yuki Kajiura

Joan - Heather Dale

(Counter:) Artificial Angels - Grimes

Some feelings:

  • Desperation.
  • Biking back home late at night, past the Caltrain. Empty streets.
  • Four sacrifices.
  • Sometimes forgetting about the light, but it shines through you anyways.
  • Angels.
  • Somehow I've grown into something seriously different. Is it going as I expected? It's all too much, so little left.
  • A need to get out.

Sources:

You understand that you're trapped, right? Earth's gravity well is nearly strong enough to keep us here forever. We have but moments to make a break, find our way out before it fades away. Especially if you care about yourself in particular rather than humanity as a whole; do you really think Fedorovism will save you? You're not getting home unless you do it.